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| Yeah, this week, I have felt a lot of anger and couldn't help but be an asshole to this one person. This one person probably don't know about my anger since we don't talk that much.
Not to get into details, but what basically happened was that I texted this person what has been on my mind for some time. With the reply text from that person, half of it, I expect what would be said, but the other half, the one I didn't expect just knock me down on the ground. From that reply text, I was thinking to myself, "Why I kept thinking like this? Why I keep feeling like this?" To my ultimate realization, I should've forgotten those things on mind, my feelings a long time ago. So I chose to not talk to that person anymore, best to distant away from that person for a LONG TIME.
By end of this month, that person is going to move up north for awhile and probably go to school there for awhile. I was thinking to myself that this must be a perfect timing for me to distant away from that person because right now I don't want to hear or see that person. Don't really want to say "good-bye" when that person leaves.
Just yesterday, that person called me to hang out, but I replied that I was working. What else, I was giving a tone that could define me as a "meanie," but it just naturally when I learned who I was talking to. I know it wasn't the right thing or the mature thing to do, but couldn't help feel as a natural thing to do when talking to that person. Having this "asshole" personality would be waste of time, but probably just help create this "big distant" between me and that person. Probably for the best.
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| Tuesday night, I received a call from a friend of mine and was invited to go to D&B. I was thinking probably go there to meet my friends and leave early to finish my studying for my Art History test. Didn't go as planned since I left 11:30 instead of 9:30. After D&B, I went to my friend's house where we pulled the all-night studying. I was actually surprised to have pulled another all-nighter. Most of the nights, I would just wake up early to study or take a nap then go back to study, but doesn't really count as an all-nighter. The most I have stayed up was 23 hours and that was for the final of my Calc 3 class. All in all, I actually had a good time during that all-night studying, except for feeling a little bit down because the memories of my friend.
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| It has been awhile since I last wrote on this site. Have been quite busy, especially in the recent events.
Couple days before the beginning of last week, I have been studying for my second test in Calculus 2. Did pretty and do not want to say much or I might get over my head. Now I have to finish the Take-Home-Test-Questions in order to get full credit, which are due later tonight. (OH BOY!)
Yesterday was also my second test for University Physics 1 and did not do so well on it. I started studying on Saturday, continued on Sunday and crammed yesterday before the BIG EVENT. I understood the concept, but not how to solve the problems. I remembered some methods or technique, but I could not pull it out of my mind. Hopefully I pass it with a high C or really HIGH B. After all, I'm aiming for a B, an A is very nice, but there are more things to do now this semester so I have to be realistic and get a possible HIGH B.
After I finish everything for school, including my Government 2 test for tomorrow, I have to file my tax return and organize my room. I am not into rushing to get my refund check because I might have to use it for my expenses, for needs not wants. It would be very nice to have everything organize, especially my room looks like there is absolutely nothing in there.
Hopefully, my friends and I would go back to San Marcos Outlet mall this month. For some reason, I'm all excited to get two new clothing and probably a new pair of shoes. It was fun the last time we went, but we came late around 3 pm instead of 11 in the morning.
Other than that, there is still this one thing pecking at the back of mind. I'll talk about this in my next blog. So many things to do nowadays.
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| Just got some info that brought me down so low. This info about a friend of mine, and I thought he was better than that. Now I don't know if I should trust him anymore. I could just walk like nothing happened with my head held high, but then again, can't really tell him anything since he doesn't take it serious or act mature. What I am so mad about is that the things he said about me and what he did after what I did for him. I sometimes covered the foods, drive him around when he doesn't have the car, heck I even lent him my car, lent him some money, let him come to my place and have a drink, and helped out with his homework. After all that, he goes and "do me" like that. In my head, I'm going "Not right man, not right. Of all the people, I thought you would be the last one to said that, after helping you out so much."
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| Saturday:
Hung out with my old friend, Danny and his friend where we walked a long while at the Galleria. Hehe, planning to buy a tempur-pedic pillow, the next time I will go to the Galleria. Afterward, chilled with Long, Hoang, and Khoa where we were playing Gears of War 2 online with William. Played for awhile till late in the night. Had to sleep early because of the performance the next day.
Sunday:
Been awhile since I last been to the temple, especially performing. During the performance, I became so frigging tired, I could barely breath or move my arms. In the middle of the performance, I felt like dropping to the ground and just lie there. After the performance, we chilled for a little while without doing practice because we were all tired from the performace.
There is something that has been bugging me for awhile. I came across two paths and still thinking of which path to take. The current path I'm on, I have been fine, and I feel that if I continue on the same one then it could be the best for me. The other path, I feel like I can't look away or simply ignore and feel good things can happen by taking this other path, but afraid my hopes and expectations would get shot down.
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